i don care

Unable to control the tears within me filled with sadness & disappointment. I will never be in the toplist. Anything can simply make me become the bottom few. Maybe i should fuck care & accept the freaking truth that i will always be the last.

tne kcus

Dragged myself out of home & went for ENT lessons.
Though i was 10mins late, i looked around the room & began to count. I am the 8th person in the room..
Was listening to my mp3 until sister S reached.
Luckily S bought his laptop & we online shopping for 3 hours. LOL
I wish money drop from the sky. So many things i wanna buy & try =((
Feel like skipping school tomorrow~
On the phone with fatty now..
Bye bye!

i see you see

Video-call with MS after reaching home.
Immediately i got to help her think of the bad impacts of IR.
Gave her 5 ideas & she only took 1! I even went to google & read forums for her..
You know what? In the end she say i SUCK..
See see see!! She always bully me.. Helped her & she say i suck -heartbroken-
Anyway i took another picture of her while she was presenting but i forget to save!!
So we only have a ugly picture.
Could not attend Wed baking session due to the stupid pom test.
Arg! Never mind. Mummy will be attending & i am gonna get the recipe from her =pp
Hope it's something easy so that i can bake, add large amount of poison & feed it to my darlings =D

Baby, if I've got you

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around
I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound
I won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody

s-a-t

Finally my skin is breathing after facial..
Goodbye to Mummy & hello to Fatty.
First time Mummy saw Fatty =D
I swear to god mummy say Fatty is fat. Super duber fat, like a pig!!
If i bluff i will always tease him =pp
Fatty brought me to a place for nice beancurd in town.
In the end, it was ROCHOR Beancurd!! My favourite beancurd =='
Had a funny conversation about it too.
After eating we went to play L4D2.
I managed to survive for one hour !!
First 10-15 mins of the game i already feel nauseous. Followed by giddiness.
It was fun somehow.. ST let's go play. LOL
Hate pressing so many buttons.
You think when the zombies attacked me i have the mood to find the bloody R to reload meh.
The game should auto reload for us. Hahahaha
After which had Mad Jack.
Fatty steak was n-i-c-e. The selfish fatty only shared with me one small piece!!!
I don't really like their baked rice. I still preferred NYDC.
However i fell in love with their cake!!
Chocolate cake i guess? The top layer was full with rich chocolate!!!
I swear it''s super duber NICEEEE =DDD
Shit i feel like eating it again =((
I don't know why Fatty is so into buying scarf & gloves for my trip to perth.
He still wanna buy matching one ==' but it's cute the way he said it & seems really excited. LOL

Fatty:
Thanks for the hard effort the past few days.
I really can see/feel it & i appreciated it alot.
Thanks for trying in this r/s.
I love the way how you fix my hair when it's in a mess.
Grab my hand first when i am not grabbing yours.
Hold my hands in public when you are wearing your uniform.
However i still hate you. You suck like hell & you are a big fat pig =p

“No, I am not okay. I am exhausted. Life is exhausting. Loving people is exhausting.
Someone please take away the pain.
Actions really means more then anything.
I hate PMS..
I hate letting my feelings take control of me.

thur

It's thursday & tomorrow is F-R-I-D-A-Y =((
Gonna attend S&W at freaking 8am. Wish i can skip this lame thing but i can't.
Bloody hell break for 2hrs. FML
2 hrs of POM, break again & EOP for 3hrs..
Adding up the hrs, lessons will be ending at holy 5pm. Super FML.

Still unsure whether B. will be booking out anot.
If he is not then we got to cancel our date the countless time.. $%^&*(#@!!
I got to bring f-o-o-d over to his camp as he hinted me that others girlfriend came on the first day while i did not =='
He flirted with his friend's girlfriends & parents somemore. LOL
I laughed like mad when he told me about their conversations.
B. is good at digging people's secret!! Super lame shit..
Girls are really damn naive.

Saturday outing got to be cancel =((
We are a group so we must go as a group =DD
Somehow i became the organizer..
So busy TST & XMS tell me your busy schedule for May & i will plan..
Love you guys truck loads!!!

my-hair

3 more months to a year since i chop off my super freaking long hair.
I miss you my super freaking long hair but i don't regret it at all.
I thought my hair grow super fast but i guess it is just my imagination.
My hair is still not half the length like before..
Wanted to perm my hair for my 19th birthday but i guess i have to do something else.
Got to push it to end of year. Hope it grows till the length i want..
Already thought of what i wanted to do to my hair this year..
Pretty excited.. Hope i am able & have the money to do it =p

Last day of me with my super freaking long hair.

Waiting for my hair to be chop off.
My hair seriously is super damn long!!

After chopping it off
I look super young right

I wanna perm my hair b-a-d-l-y.
Hair oh hair please grow as fast as you can.
Chopping off all old memories & grow new one with a sucker who is pretty disturbing & irritating but someone who is very much precious to me.

p-e-r-t-h

Hello Perth in J-U-N-E =DD
Gonna sell backside to get 400bucks..
Got to get h1n1 & flu injections.. FML !!
Is anyone kind enough to lend me some winter wear clothes??
I am so going to miss my mummy!!!
Excited & scared.

Cry, Sleep & Forget.

It's sunday

Weekends are the most beautiful thing to me now. No freaking school/waking up early in the morning/long breaks & seeing people whom i dislike. Thanks God!!
Went to town with Mummy. Shopped at Daiso & bought lots of stuffs. Bought Mummy to Manhattan Fish Market for our dinner.. Had school & relationship talks with her. I considered Mummy as one of my best friend =DD
Went over to compass point & carry on shopping. Thanks mummy for buying me lots of stuffs!!!
My cute B. called during his break just to check whether i am studying anot. Somehow i still find it sweet & feeling very happy about it =D
School ends at 1 tomorrow. Shall not give B. anymore surprises. Guess he had enough of it. Sooner or later he need to start eating some medicine to prevent him from having heart attack. LOL
Gonna go home spend my day with 2 storybooks & a magazine. So many things for me to read!!
Goodnight peeps.
Got to do a freaking homework even though i am freaking tired!!!



Girl do take care of yourself in China for a month. Remember to msn or e-mail me if i am not online. If you are having any troubles over there must tell me. I will book a ticket the very next day & fly over to rescue you!! P/s: I book while you pay =p Make yourself available when you are back. Haven't seen you for i don't know how many months already!! Have a safe trip =D I will miss you!!

TGISAT

Dinner with parents at Ichiban Sushi. One of my favourite restaurant to dine in at.
Went to the library & borrowed 3 books.. Am gonna to spend lesser time with Mr.C & more time with the books =DD
B. asked me what books i borrowed? I told him one of it is about Girl's stuff & he thought i borrowed a LES book. My boy is simply cute!!!


P/s:Love my mummy's smile.
P/s:My face look FAT

oh no

School is starting tomorrow.. Freaking sad now.. Why good things always end so fast?? Someone please tell me it's one of april's fool joke!! I don't wanna school to start....
I haven't even have a hair cut & prepare myself for Year2 but i am kind of looking forward to the interview =DD
Can't wait to get my new time table & plan for the next outing. No more then 3 subjects please & i wanna a slack schedule =pp

SYF 2010

Woke up freaking early at 8am. Met girlfriends + KT at sk & we cabbed down to indoor stadium.
Waited for freaking 2-3hrs before they let us in.. Saw many generations of BWSS band members..
Was super excited when Bowen band was up next!! Promised myself not to scream because of my manly voice. As you all knew i broke my promised. I screamed like mad & i clapped till my hands were red.
Managed to find a video of the performance..

I watched at least 4 times & i am seriously not sick of it. I love their music, new style & uniform lastly their superb performance super much!! Their music seriously did touch me.
Congratulations to BMB!! They got GOLD WITH HONOURS!!! Girlfriends & i with the other supporters of BMB were screaming like mad. They totally deserve it.. GOOD JOB GUYS!!! I am looking forward to 2012 performance =DD

Had a bad hair day & worst bad eye day!! My left eye is bigger than my right =='
Was supposed to have a mini date with B. but a changed of plan cause he vomited blood.. SERVE YOU RIGHT FATTY FOR CLUBBING W/O ME!!! I missed all the dramas he had =(( Like fun only... Seriously i think it was super drama. Poor girls & fXXX those guys.
He even make a friend for me... Thanks for that but what's the use when you don't even bring me out!!! He even bad mouth about me to her.. What a "NICE" boyfriend i have..
Why must i be sick on the last week of school holidays!!! Now i even sound like a man.. G-R-E-A-T!!!
Gonna drink the cough medicine B's mum gave me & knock out..
Goodnight!!

I miss the you who was once my best friend.
You are one of the few who knows the real me deep down.
I am also one of the few who knows the real you deep down under many layers of your smile.
I was never angry with you for giving up this friendship.
Rather i was disappointed. Very disappointed i must say.
Because of someone else you decided to give up the friendship we had.
Losing a friend who knows the real you.
Been years since we last chatted.
I am really glad to know that you are living much happier than before.
Unlike me. My life suck. Thanks god, my mum is still there for me & 3 girlfriends who will always there for me despite their busy schedule. Big hearts for them.
You have changed & i have too. Even though you have become a big sucker which i seriously hate alot & i guess i no longer know you anymore.
However sometimes i wish you are still the you whom i know years ago.
Someone who will show me great encouragements, supports & concerns in whatever i do.
I really miss this friend i knew but things can never be the same again.

Shortlisted

HELLO PEEPS!!

When i was sleeping a unknown number called. Was hesitating whether to pick it up but in the end i did. It was a call from school. The teacher told me i am shortlisted for Perth & maybe i just need to top up another 100-200bucks!!! There will be an interview on Tue.
My heart sank while she asked me about my GPA. I think my chances are quite low.
I nearly said i am not interested when she asked me whether i am still interested to go.. If i really say that i will kill myself!!!
I think i was mumbling lots of rubbish to her .. HAHAHA.

Was considering whether should i go for this trip:

-No friends
-Unsure i can take care of myself
-Gonna be away from home damn long
-Will be missing my mummy damn much & those chatting sessions

After chatting with Jas & settled down to think about it. I know my answer. I freaking badly wanna go to PERTH!! Fuck all those problems i may encounter.. This may be my only chance to go to Perth.. So on this coming Tue, i need to WOW the teachers & i will be able to go to Perth!!!!
Super scared & excited but i am going to do my best ^^


P/s:My parents honeymoon trip are at Perth so that makes me even excited to visit Perth =DD

Gathering

Thanks Louis for driving us down to Orchard.
Had dinner at Astons with Cliques & Girlfriends.
Sat at the open area & managed to see the beautiful sun set.
It's so damn awesome.
The war began for Jackass & me...
After dinner 6 of us settled down at Starbucks.
Had hell lots of F-U-N.
We played heart attack & so on.
Stupid Jackass gave me a tight hit on my left shoulder until i cried & pinched my cheek seriously damn hard until it looked like a love bite.
I still can feel the pain in my left cheek..
Hate that fatty ttm!!!
Gonna plan another outing this week but our schedule all crashed with one another =((
Wanna go marina barrage & fly kite ^^
Left the place almost till midnight.
Wanna go Seragoon Garden for dessert but it's closed on Monday =='
Blasting music all the way..
Luckily me got the front seat as i stay just a few blocks away from Louis.
Poor 4 persons squeezing behind the back seats =ppp
Secondary school friends are still the best even though we hardly meet.
Once we meet we cannot stop bickering & throw each other face.
I really missed those times when there is totally no dramas.

P/s:Picts are all in FB

karma

You taught me about Karma & you made me believed it.
The things i am going through now i believed it is my karma.
I no longer blamed anyone but myself.
I bought it upon myself.
I accepted the way things are now.
I am tired to fight back.
There's no way i can win too.

standing suck

My hope came true!! My partner is a very nice guy.. He allowed me to slack around stoned/watch youtube/doing nothing/sms-ing while he served the customers. LOL. I seriously suck at phones.. I don't even know a basic thing about it. First time ever i know so many functions of a phone & it's like not even mine.. I hate complex stuffs.
Had dinner a-l-o-n-e. I felt normal.. Maybe because i chose a place that's not so crowded?? Gonna think where to go for dinner tomorrow or should i skip?? Hehehehehe. My partner said i am super skinny & asked whether i am mix blood. You know mix what?? Chinese & malay =='
My partner keep testing me about the phone =(( Android, Android, Android.. Conductive, Conductive, Conductive.. FXXX, FXXX, FXXX.. Beside that i still have to learn about other models.. OMG!!! Why am i SE promoter when i know Nokia models even better.. It's super contradicting.
Heard from him Sunday gonna have hell lots of people. Wish me luck in able to avoid those customers HAHAHAHA.. Got to dive into my dream land now. Goodnight peeps.

P/s: Moola coming in $.$

Good Fri

Bought Mac breakfast early in the morning like 10am for B. I really don't understand why people wake up so early just to have breakfast?? I rather skip breakfast & sleep for more then 8hrs. The queue at Mac was like super L-O-N-G? The whole restaurant was flooded with humans & noisy kids. B. eat garlic chilli together with his mac breakfast.. YUCKS!! Sorry but i find it super disgusting.. Like B. find it disgusting when i eat curry sauce together with my burger.. I think curry sauce & burger is totally fine??
Travelled all the way to his camp.. Yups C-A-M-P which is super far & remote. Luckily i have straight bus over =DD Saw the smile B. had when i passed him the food =))) Actually the whole journey was not bad.. The scariest part is walking towards his camp. When you can see lots of cctv, super heavy security & soldiers walking around with rifle.. Totally cannot see handsome army guys LOL.
Evening Daddy drove us out to eat.. The food i must say was delicious despited the place they are located at.. The yam paste is the best i ever had!!! Saw many stars while walking back to Daddy's car. I love looking at stars =) It is just so beautiful.
Tomorrow I am gonna start working with total no knowledge at all!!! Missed their training day. I don't even know who to look for when i am there =( Heard that i am located at Singtel HQ.. People who go there are super pro with phones .. I am gonna be so dead. I suck with phone. Up till now i still don't know how to operate my E71 fully.. Hahahaha. Hope my partner is a nice person *Cross fingers* I hope i still can fit in my jeans cause the last time i wore it's like super baggy.. Am collecting my forever21 jeans & my other buys this monday from ST =DDD Wish everything will go smoothly tomorrow. Same goes to my darling girlfriend ^^

P/s: I want a date with B.

April Fool

Was watching movie when MS called my house. She told me ST was in trouble.. She was caught shoplifted in Daiso.. She was in the security room & the police were called.. Quickly sms-ed ST & she told me it was an April Fool joke... Knew it was a joke cause i remembered today is April Fool Day... Poor MS buys it & she really was very worried. LOL. ST claimed she tricked us cause she CARE ABOUT US.. What werid logic is this... Hahahahaa

Edited(9.09pm):

Found a Job together with MS but different venue =(( Hope we are able to work at the same place the next week!! Anyone will be in town this weekends?? Let me know cause i don't wanna be a loner eating my dinner alone.. Wish the guy i am working with will be super nice & friendly. Super freaking scared & excited!! 8 hours of promoting... Wish there is not much customers & i am able to slacker around =pp
Got to cancel the dating day with B. Been waiting for so long just to have a date with him.. I guessed it can't be blamed.. Our schedule kind of always crash together =(( Gonna book another day with him again..
My hair is super irritating!!! Need to trim it but i don't know where to go. I don't trust all the saloon near my house area. The usual saloon i always go is kind of far. Wish to go back to find Zabby but it's far & expensive.. Freaking hell.. Don't know what to do...