IHY

No matter how well i fake in front of you people. I can never ever bluff myself. The feeling of pain & hurt is always there. Forever used to be a word for us but now everything became a dream. How i wish i can forget someone like you.

Hello. I am blogging through my phone now as Mr.C is admitted to the hospital earlier this afternoon. Hp will even be delivering the repaired Mr.C to my house.. Thumbs up for their services..
I am already done packing my stuffs. Mummy, brother & girlfriends will be there to send me off.. I am so touched!!! Hope everything will be fine in Perth. I will miss you guys :)
Gonna end here now. There"s work early in the morning. Goodnight!

I'm confuse & somehow it hurts my mind & heart. I am letting time & god to decide my fate. What's mine will be mine. I am going to focus on my studies now. I need a diploma to get into my dream job!! Shall push relationship the bullshit to one freaking far end. I am not going to go for it again until i am 21. I'm tired of always choosing the wrong guy & shed my precious tears over them. I will be even more independent & study well to give Mummy a better life.

Happy Shopping

Mummy bought me a lip gloss as an advanced birthday present! The salesgirl was so good. She helped me to choose the colour, try it on my lips followed by eyeliner, mascara & blusher.. She make me feel pretty again. (P/s: i went out with a bare face) Mummy wanna buy the eyeliner for me as well but i stopped her cause it was freaking expensive!! Mummy bought me a bag too!! I am going to bring it to Perth.. In return of the the things my Mummy had paid for me i treated her dinner & paying some stuffs that i can afford.
Mummy you are the best mummy in the world. Brother & me are older now, You know deep down in our heart we love you so much though we hardly say it out. I know that you are always worrying about me. Worry not Mummy, I am placing my studies first followed by family & friends next & lastly relationship. I will work hard to get my dream job!!

home sweet home

Drama marathon for today. Watched for hours until my eyes is in pain. Any pretty/handsome wanna lend me a mp4 player so i can store the reminding episodes & watch it in Perth??? I will love you super much!!
Sweet ST volunteer to pack my bag for me!! I have such a sweet girlfriend. Dumber was sweet too. She wanted to send me off at the airport but i told her it's alright. Thank you so much for the sweetness peeps.. Seriously i don't know what to pack though i have a check-list. Shall ask my friend what they are bringing & i will be a copycat =pp

P/s: 5 more days to go

2 in 1

On tue, work was cancelled due to the heavy rain. Web-cam with MS while she was having her break.


Afternoon i went over to my friend house to get some clothes & windbreaker for Perth. I LOVE WINDBREAKER!!!! I wish Singapore weather allow me to wear it everyday.. I am gonna take lots of pictures with that windbreaker in Perth. -Big wide smile- I am gonna start packing this Friday. I hate packing stuffs. Any kind soul wanna help me pack?? I will buy you a meal..
Stayed over for dinner & watched 2 world cup matches. Lost 10bucks thanks to Spain!!! I seriously don't know why their aiming suck so much though their passing are great. Fly money fly~ Anyway they have a few handsome players. So freaking handsome!!! Can't take my eyes of them. LOL. Cabbed home & it cost me 15bucks.. First day of pay is g-o-n-e.

Today work was per normal as there's no rain. Managed to find my way to La Pa Sa market. Felt so proud of myself =D Texted Jasmine asking whether her workplace is near & hooray it's near & she came over for lunch. Jasmine could not recongnize me from far. She thought i was some little girl. HAHAHA. Sweet girl brought some sweets down & accompanied me to chit chat for a little while. My primary school friend bumped into me too.. What a good day. Gonna work for one more day & moola will be rolling in =D Finally i can sleep till late afternoon & no more waking up at 8.30am this week.
Busy busy days ahead.

Just so right

Had an awesome day on 11 June. Everything turned out just so damn right..

P/s:I can't smile. FML

Last day of mugging

Skipped school & study at home cause the weather is simply too freaking good! Was supposed to wake up at 6.30am to have breakfast with mummy then study but i ended up sleeping till 10am. I wish the weather will be like this forever.
Last day of mugging cause tomorrow is the day!! Wish me luck peeps. Hope everything is stored in my lousy brains..

P/s:Can't wait for it to end!!

Screwed up

My body, brains & especially my hormones are super screwed up.. Been having a mixture of good & bad dreams. I don't use to dream but now i dream almost everyday. My body is always on sleepy mode. I can immediately sleep after waking up for only 3hours. My whole face is full of pimples.. It's super serious. I did not notice it until i went for facial today. Currently my face is red & swollen. Thank you Mummy for spending so much money on me. ILY!!
I guess i am not only stress but freaking stress!!! Many stuffs have been occupying my mind.. Shall push them all aside now & focus on my studies. Endure another 3 more days & i am gonna start clearing the problems one by one.. Freak you exam!!! Freak you problems!!!

P/s: How i wish you are by my side.

Edited:

Had heart to heart talk with mummy. Her eyes is still as sharp as before. She was saying the same things that girlfriends & jasmine told me again & again. I guess i was really wrong once again. I thought i found someone who can last as long as possible with me. I thought by always giving in we can last but reality slapped me once again. I guess i am super naive & simple... It's really slim to find someone who is willing to be with you for that long..

19 more days

Dates are set. Tickets are booked. Already went for the injection. 19 more days to say Goodbye Singapore!!!
There's a briefing & bonding session on the 11 at 5pm. Good things just like to fall on the same freaking day. 11 is also my cousin's wedding!!! Heart sank when Mrs Lee said that the briefing might end at 8pm.. The dinner start at 7.30pm =(( It's compulsory for us to attend the briefing & bonding session.. Sad to the MAX.. I wish i can teleport..
World Cup is on the 11 too... WJ said Germany have no chance of winning this year =( I shall followed The Muttons & support team England =)) 4 years passed by so freaking fast..

A good good day

Glad that i decided not to skip school. POM was so fun while EOP was the totally opposite. Thank you W for treating S & i KOI bubble tea!!! Hooray to my psycho-ing skill =pp
Big hooray for my mummy for able to find a clinic having the 2 in 1 jab in such a short time where many places are having OOS..
Met Jasmine at Point after my dinner. She is so damn sweet!!! She passed me a bag full of chocolates, sweets & potato chips!!!! She bought & passed it to me after reading my previous post! Where to find such sweet childhood friend!! W-H-E-R-E!!


Beside all the food i wanted she gave me a card. Seriously i was so touched. I nearly cry in public. It have been a long time since someone really surprised & did something so sweet to me.. In return, i treated her Mac's Ice-cream. (You're luckily i brought my wallet with me.)
Girl i really am so thankful for the sweet little things you have done.. It really touches my heart. Thank you for being there to talk to me whenever i am feeling down. Thank you for rushing online when you read about my sad tweets. Thank you for cheering me up & making me smile. Thanks a million for always been there for me. Sorry girl for not treating you back like the way you treated me. I really am so thankful that i know you. You are like my guardian angel. I am crying while i am typing all this cause i am so touched. You are one of the few who really knows me well. Thanks for seeing the growth in me.
Thank you God for sending numbers of angels into my life. I love them freaking much & my family too. I feel so loved by them =)

A little bit of everything

Anyone wanna buy me a truck of chocolates, sweets, ice-cream & potato chips?? I think i need them pretty badly.. The pain i am experiencing hurts so freaking much. I need them to feel a little better though it wouldn't help much. Someone or something please take this pain away from me...

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JASMEAN. ♥♥♥ says:

You keep meeting the wrong people in your life. :/ i rather you lose faith in love for a long time and finally meet the right guy then having to fall again and again to realise it's the wrong one again.

Tumblr

Helloooo. Not in the right mood to blog this few days. Will be making a little switch over to Tumblr with many meaningful quotes & stunning pictures. Will be back when things turn better. So it means i will be back anytime =) Check this space out when you are free & if you saw any ads please help me CLICK. Thanks a million!!!

P/s: Truth & reality checked.